I'm convinced i have BDD.
Body dysmorphic disorder (BDD) is a serious illness when a person is preoccupied with minor or imaginary physical flaws, usually of the skin, hair, and nose. What are the symptoms of BDD?
Being preoccupied with minor or imaginary physical flaws, usually of the skin, hair, and nose, such as acne and scarring, facial lines, marks, moles, pale skin, thinning hair, excessive body hair, large nose, or crooked nose and others.
Having a lot of anxiety and stress about the perceived flaw and spending a lot of time focusing on it, such as frequently picking at skin, excessively checking appearance in a mirror, hiding the imperfection, comparing appearance with others, excessively grooming, seeking reassurance from others about how they look, and getting cosmetic surgery.
I basically worry about all of this.
To me everytime i look in the mirror i see this disgusting person starring back at me and i hate it.
I went all through school having no confidence in my apearance and not being able to socialise with other properly. I was convinced everyone was looking at me. And now when people do look at me.. e.g in the shopping centre i'll start swearing at them like "WTF you lookin' at? What! WTF Dya Want? Yeah Bitch keep walking" I wont leave the house until my hair is perfect either. I've also just realised that i'm not going anywhere tommorow and i've straightened my hair twice now because it's not straight enough. I'll also wake up at 4 in the morning knowing i have to go back to sleep but i'll get up and do my hair..
My skin is pale, My nose i think is too big.. my head is too big my hips are too wide. I can go on forever on how much i hate about myself. It makes me sick from worry that i've actually missed school and other occasions. I've had surgery to get rid of a mole that i didnt like aswell now i have a scar to obsess over.
Many of you will think this is for attention or just say.. No one likes themself completely everyone has things they hate.. Well shut up thats not the way to look at it. This ruins my life it already has and being super skinny doesn't help either..
I just wanna know what you lot really think of me.. the first thing that comes into your heads..
I want you to tell me who i am.
Thankyou.
HannahHEARTBREAK
I basically worry about all of this.
To me everytime i look in the mirror i see this disgusting person starring back at me and i hate it.
I went all through school having no confidence in my apearance and not being able to socialise with other properly. I was convinced everyone was looking at me. And now when people do look at me.. e.g in the shopping centre i'll start swearing at them like "WTF you lookin' at? What! WTF Dya Want? Yeah Bitch keep walking" I wont leave the house until my hair is perfect either. I've also just realised that i'm not going anywhere tommorow and i've straightened my hair twice now because it's not straight enough. I'll also wake up at 4 in the morning knowing i have to go back to sleep but i'll get up and do my hair..
My skin is pale, My nose i think is too big.. my head is too big my hips are too wide. I can go on forever on how much i hate about myself. It makes me sick from worry that i've actually missed school and other occasions. I've had surgery to get rid of a mole that i didnt like aswell now i have a scar to obsess over.
Many of you will think this is for attention or just say.. No one likes themself completely everyone has things they hate.. Well shut up thats not the way to look at it. This ruins my life it already has and being super skinny doesn't help either..
I just wanna know what you lot really think of me.. the first thing that comes into your heads..
I want you to tell me who i am.
Thankyou.
HannahHEARTBREAK
